|
|
|||||||||
Northern Bird (4363)
Northern Bird
(email not shown publicly) I left the North, I travelled South.... Hello! lou, 30, living in North London with the luscious Rallen, but originally from the North West. A girl with a thorn in my side, my main loves are good food, fine wine, BDSM and cats. Semi-retired from Moz-solo, I check in occasionally to check the journals of good friends. Not drowning anymore... Journal of Northern Bird (4363)Monday December 15, 03
Denbigh here we come....03:49 PM
Don't know WHAT is going on. All is surreal, and I'm existing in a state of constant anger and turmoil, teetering on the brink of a Ren-like outburst. I feel hunted. Every time someone calls my name or my phone rings I feel like screaming 'LEAVE ME ALONE'. When people ask me what's wrong I almost cry, I get a knot in my throat and have to blink back the tears. I just want all communication to cease: I just want to be left alone. It's the niggling things. Even though I feel desperate - regret my career choice, am scared of my inevitable life of loneliness and misery - it's the small things that I allow to gnaw at my mind. Fucking xmas presents and arrangements, the flat, the washing. And bigger things - my total inability to get a grip on my life, my increasing fear of crowds, my growing hatred of strangers. Is this it? Am I taking the final steps towards being sectioned? In all this mist, my friends are my crutches. Me and Rallen are closer than we've ever been, he loves and cares for me so much. He doesn't really understand what's going on but still he loves me, preventing my self-destruction. Also warmest thanks to the concern of Natalie, Wardie, Pins and all the others. It really does mean so much. *big sigh* (I sigh SO MUCH recently :o() L
This discussion has been archived.
No new comments can be posted.
The Fine Print: The following comments are owned by whoever posted them. We are not responsible for them in any way.
|
|||||||||
|
Awww, I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling down :( (Score:0)
http://www.badgerbadgerbadger.com/
Lot's of love,
Your secret admirer!
Wait (Score:0)
hand in hand is the only way to stand (Score:1)
the boy xx
(User #4753 Info)
Stop Breaking Down Blues (Score:1)
(Curt enters room in clown costume, proceeds to stand on his head, tries to pull a flower out of his back pocket to wave at Northern Bird, forgets his poor grasp of equilibrium and crashes with a thud on the floor. The flower swirls down and comes to a rest on the heap of rubble in clown costume.)
This isn't really helping, is it? I'm always at a loss for comforting words, so all I can really say is, please take care… I hate it when people I like are feeling down.
(User #8765 Info)
Love (Score:1)
I'll keep you in my thoughts and send some love your way. Everyone's experiences are different but some of the emotions are the same and I recognize them a lot in your journal entries. Let me know if I can do anything.
K
(User #3195 Info)
Oh you are a gloomy gus (Score:0)
Tony H
Findus Chrispy Pancakes (Score:0)
But anyway Lou look on the brightside,
Liverpool are having a stunning season and look odds on to win the Prem.
Tee Hee
Hope you and rallen have a beautiful christmas
Tony H