Got another text off A last night. He told me he was ok but also feeling a big void after the Moz tour. He told me to keep the faith. Lol. He then sent a lovely one saying Goodnight, sweet dreams X Awww bless. He's just so so sweet. I'm not sure I've totally given up on him yet but we'll see what happens.

The weekend should be good. One of my bests has asked me to stay at hers on Fri or Sat night, and a net pal has arranged lunch for Sunday. So I think I'll go to my best's on Sat and have a drink with some friends from my old work on Friday, I fancy having some fun with a group.

Tonight my friend from uni is coming to stay. I was really really looking forward to getting a takeaway and having a damn good chat but he's just texted to say the trains are messed up again and he's not going to be here til 9.30pm at least. So annoying. It's gonna be weird having him stay here overnight, we always flirt like mad and are so so rude together! We've never been alone together overnight before, haha. I think it would be too weird actually. He IS gorgeous tho LOL.

I'm keeping my mind occupied. I think it's the best way. Ooh I just remembered, I dreampt about Morrissey last night. Not that unusual, but in this dream I met him. I had to queue up and I was the first and I took a CD for him to sign. He was weird and awkward and I felt like an idiot. It wasn't nice. I walked away feeling stupid, but then I started to wake up and realised it wasn't real. This morning I had to drive 50 miles and I spent a lot of it imagining meeting him for real. I don't have a clue what I'd say! Oh well.

I'm going to lie on my bed now and daydream, it's been something I've been doing more recently, and it's always nicer than reality. In my daydreams I am with A and meet Moz and am attractive and happy and LOVED.

Til tomorrow (does it have to come?)
xx