Northern Bird (4363)

Northern Bird
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I left the North, I travelled South.... Hello! lou, 30, living in North London with the luscious Rallen, but originally from the North West. A girl with a thorn in my side, my main loves are good food, fine wine, BDSM and cats. Semi-retired from Moz-solo, I check in occasionally to check the journals of good friends. Not drowning anymore...
Wednesday March 17, 04

As per sophie's request....

03:52 PM

It's most distressing readers, twice I've written half an entry and lost it. Today I worked an 11 hour day and am barely capable of holding my head up straight. So excuse this feeble attempt at an entry.

1) Last week I felt very over-emotional, like you do on the days before your period. This coupled with a noticeable larger belly has induced slight paranoia in yours truly.

2) The weekend was most wonderful, from our cool hotel apartment, to the delicious people at the S&G (MancMoz please stand up), to licking ladybits in loos, to my wonderful in-laws, to watching the scum lose 4-1.

3) Am getting little sleep and working 9-11 hour days resulting in severe tiredness and feeling that I spend all my waking hours stressed, which is practically true.

4) A very very special magnificant man I knew died at the weekend. He was one of the true inspirational people you meet in your life - and was also funny, lazy and loved his food! Truly a fellow Libran. Taken from us at 55, a massive loss. God it's so unfair.

5) Rallen has come through marvellously for me this week. He's been thoughtful, kind, sympathetic and very very loving. His journal entry touched me enormously, as do his very frequent texts. I'm far too stressed and tired to be able to adequately express my gratitude to him but I try.

6) The people on these journals are fucking amazing. Candi, Lucrecia, Gabriella, MancMoz, Biffo, Pillow, BlueGirl, Stella, Sweetness, Redpathetic, MozGirl18, davidtwigg, Higgy, Haze, Wandsworth Matt, Toni and all the other fantastic people who know who they are. God I'm bound to offend someone there! I apologise in advance.

It's all too much now. Father Ted, a Baileys and a Dominos have raised my spirits slightly, but I can barely keep my eyes open. I'm off to bed.

Love to all and I'll write properly soon. Candi and Toni thanks for the emails and Nat and Stella thanks for the msn messages. Ma top girlies!!!

GDx

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  • And spell my name with a capital S,I'm very important now I'm depressed.I get to sit in the special seats on the bus,and old people have to move out of my way.

    Love and 'stuff'.

    x x x x x x
    pillow -- Wednesday March 17 2004, @04:01PM (#90876)
    (User #5286 Info)
  • right now is to take care of yourself.
    Your a marvelous woman and I can hardly wait to meet you in person.
    Loss in such a permanent way is unconditionally the hardest to take and understand.
    Just hang onto your man as tight as possible and let his loving energy flow through you while you try to release the energy in you that drags you down.
    I hope a reprieve from work by weeks end helps of sorts.
    AND, know here your always loved and welcomed to vent.
    ~sweet kisses and hugs dear~
    Just for future reference it is LucreTia, but your forgiven this time.;-)
    Lucretia <{Lucretia2000} {at} {hotmail.com}> -- Wednesday March 17 2004, @04:57PM (#90880)
    (User #7336 Info)
    It's a shady game and I want to lose, please let me lose it's nothing to you...
  • Loverly lil Lou (Score:1, Redundant)

    Hey lady Lou,
    Awwww bless you put me in your list of your fave people on here. I read your journal entry,last time I did stuff like that with a girl was on Hols in the UK. I diden't know you were bi! I told my b/f about you and said how hot you were and sent him your pic and he says your cute:-). But I think your hot,*leaps to the floor in complete extasy* wahey,redheaded English chicks like you make me all hot and wanna be naughty,15 minutes with you,well.....I wouldn't say no;-). And how I wouldn't mind being stuck in a ladies room stall with ya either ;-). I'm just being honest here. Mwauh! Your my lil sweetheart.
    -Candi xxxxxx
    PS Where's my email hmmmm? LOL! Ask Rallen if he got my email to,cause I sent him one to.
    Mrs.Shankly <[email protected]> -- Wednesday March 17 2004, @07:34PM (#90896)
    (User #4262 Info)
    "I know I need hardly say,how much I love your casual way".
  • Delighted of Wandsworth.
    Wandsworth Matt -- Thursday March 18 2004, @03:11AM (#90918)
    (User #6967 Info)
    XIIX
  • I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now. And then...losing someone on top of that - I know it's difficult. Take care of yourself and keep your head up. It will all get better soon :)
    hand in glove -- Thursday March 18 2004, @07:03AM (#90951)
    (User #827 Info)
    "Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together" - Marilyn Monroe
  • I read this during I.T lesson and upon seeing my name, managed to squeal incredibly loudly, and have now ended up with a 20 minute detention for doing so!
        Hope you're ok you daft bat, and that no minature louise's are on the way, because you know what would happen if there was. You'd have to call it Harriet. :)
    Stella the diver -- Thursday March 18 2004, @10:17AM (#90984)
    (User #8170 Info | http://www.thehun.net/)
    but if you leave here, you leave me broken, shattered, I lie. We're just a crosshair, just a shot, then we can die.
  • Sorry for your loss, and many thanks for putting me on the list of notable Moz-solo journalers. I was chuffed :)
    Gabriella -- Thursday March 18 2004, @06:26PM (#91033)
    (User #7960 Info)
    And me and my heart, we knew...we just knew...forevermore...


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