Things are most definitely looking up. I'm feeling fairly positive, but with the usual reservations. The glue is setting but things aren't fixed yet. God that was shit. Ah well, sue me.

Other than that, I really need to keep a rein on my feelings. At the moment they are rampant, deep and intense. I'm starting to experience feelings that I felt once before, when I fell in love with my ex, and I've often feared I would never ever experience again. And it's even better, because there's none of the paranoia that blighted that relationship, just deep affection.

Sometimes, particularly over the last week, my feelings seem to be reciprocated and it's wonderful, but I know I'm probably wrong, and anyway it'll very probably end in hurt. The obstacles are steep and many. I'm old and wise enough to realise you don't know what you've got til it's gone, but I'm not everybody.

Never mind, when it's good I'm ecstatically happy and I'll take that for now.

Lou :o)