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Northern Bird (4363)
Northern Bird
(email not shown publicly) I left the North, I travelled South.... Hello! lou, 30, living in North London with the luscious Rallen, but originally from the North West. A girl with a thorn in my side, my main loves are good food, fine wine, BDSM and cats. Semi-retired from Moz-solo, I check in occasionally to check the journals of good friends. Not drowning anymore... Journal of Northern Bird (4363)Monday September 08, 03
Mini crisis08:48 AM
So dear friends, you may have noticed my subdued mood. Sometimes the future seems so dull of hope and promise, but then it all seems to turn to shit. I was talking to my colleague before and he basically told me that I'll be working 12 hour days when I qualify in December. I know he's right. I am totally unwilling to give up my life like this. I had no life for 8 years with my ex, this is MY time and the 2 1/2 years I've had so far is not enough. It's not even like I have to do all this work to further my career and learn stuff. It's just the fascist company and their targets. Giving us a day and a halfs worth of work in one day and we just have to do it or leave. The pay's pretty good but I don't give a shit. I want my TIME. What also really upset me is that I explained to him that I wanted to be a psychologist or therapist. He asked me why I didn't do it and I said I didn't want to spend 7 years doing psychiatry. Then it hit me. I spent 5 years studying for my chosen profession. For fuck's sake. I should have just gone for it. Now I'm trapped into 60 hour weeks. Fabulous. Things only got worse when I got home, tired out and in need of comfort. To cut a long story short, I'm being TOTALLY used. A loved one is being unbelievably cruel and selfish and it hurts more than I can explain. I'm seriously considering walking away from it all. I can handle being alone again, shut away with only my music, internet and DVDs. I just want my surroundings to be mine, how I left them and how I want them. I feel an ultimatum coming on...
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Tightrope (Score:1)
im going to make this work if its the last thing i ever do, at the moment this will embarrase me for the rest of my life, i dont want it too haunt me for the rest of my life, that would be too much. you deserve so much more, i deserve death by firing squad. (of which i would happily pay for the bullets)
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