Oh such a week! I really wish I could record everything I've been feeling and experiencing here, but there's not time and it's not appropriate. What was wonderful was meeting the beautiful Natalie (Sweetness) and Tommi. A gorgeous, sweet, friendly couple who I'd love to see more. I'm glad they are both in my life.

Work yesterday turned out to be quite a relief. I'm currently working on a major assignment called my Critical Analysis (CA). I thought I was really behind on it but it turns out it's ok. I also had to do a presentation which I barely prepared for and god I was really bricking it. It was fine though, very little stress. So although I'm not happy by any means, I no longer have a permanent knot in my stomach with a nasty sick feeling.

Things with my 'love life' are weird right now. Having been single for 2 1/2 years I think I've become accustomed to people not finding me attractive. What I'm trying to explain, badly, is that the guy I've been having uncertain feelings for for the last few months seems to be feeling the same. I've been unsure whether my feelings were a deep liking, respect and friendship, or something more. I suspected something more, but as things have been so mixed up I was never sure. Yesterday we talked and it seems he feels the same, he's been seeing me in a romantic sense too. However this isn't going to be the great romance, extraneous factors prevent it. For one thing, neither of us are really properly ready. And also, we cannot be sure it's right. Neither of us have all the ingredients, and whilst I think that can be worked through, there are many things to consider. Apart from the (few) personality clashes, it's the timing that's not right.

So although there is no particular development ie the formation of a relationship, our bond is now that much deeper and I still get to share the intense friendship and the love and companionship of a wonderful person. My life is enriched by him. Anyway I'm gushing so I'm gonna shut up.

It's now about 85 degrees and it's hot in here! I'm going to go buy a twister lolly.

Love you guys.

Lou xxx