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Saturday August 20, 05
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05:41 PM - it's not over: there's still the pain
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Well, I've returned. Boredom has worn me down. No, actually, life has worn me down.
This has been, without question, the worst year of my life so far. Surpassing even the 14th and 15th years: being 22 was just awful - at least it's nearly over, but I can't see turning 23 solving any problems. Still, it could always be worse, I suppose: at least I have... well, actually, I can't even say that anymore. No, life is crap.
It's funny to think this time last year I was still engaged to be married. Funny how much can change in a year. At the moment, it would seem, the big thing in my life is my career change: I decided that the job I took as a graduate was somewhat lame (aside from the fact I can still watch Neighbours every afternoon), and thus, for the past 4 weeks I've been job hunting.
Next week shall also see me travelling south for the Reading Festival. Shall you be there? I really can't be bothered going - the truth to tell - it all seemed much more exciting in February or March or whenever it was I booked the ticket. I'd rather sit up in bed with a good book these days than venture outside: I just came back from a holiday in Laganas: can you imagine? Oh, dear Lord - the depravity. Heading off again all seems a bit much, but I've promised some friends that I'll give them a ride down in the galloping sausage (that's my car, for the uninitiated) and thus I do feel somewhat obligated.
Anyway, I think it may now be time for bed: it's a little after 2.30am British Standard Time, and I've drunk enough Ouzo to make my mouth feel like it's been sterilized. Perhaps I'll write another entry sometime soon.
Goodnight xx
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Hugs,
BlueGirl