January already.

The last few days we've been stuck in the house due to a 5 day heatwave - and the other side of the world is freezing. It's school holidays and we've had a pretty good time over all. Christmas went by quietly, I learnt to take it a bit easier and spend time with my family instead of rushing to and fro.
My Grandma died the Wednesday before Christmas - the first of my grandparents to go. It was difficult as I never really got along with her or felt a kind of connection. She wasn't that nice to my mum and I remember on my 18th birthday as I was blowing out the candles she said "well we didn't want you at the time but we are glad you are here now" - kind of harsh. My parents were young when I unexpectedly came along and I guess grandma thought they were too young.

We had her wake on Saturday night - well it was a party really. Lots of people there to remember her and that is when I thought that instead of being harsh and stewing on the things that I thought she failed on - maybe I should think about the good things about her. Her love a good time, always dancing, singing, drinking the last one to leave a party. I don't know much about her but I think when she was young she might have had a hard time and it was great that she was able to keep a smile on her face and focus on living life to its fullest.

The next morning/day was rough though - drank way too much champagne and spent the next day sleeping in and being in a bad mood. I snapped myself out of it by dinner time though. It made me not miss "the old days" too much, just don't have the constitution for too much drinking anymore.

This weekend my partner and I are going away to Melbourne for 2 nights, 3 days - primarily to see David Sedaris - yay! But it is our first time away without children - well our first time away - ever! I'm getting quite excited and hope that it goes as plans. We are going to do boring things but made exciting by being able to do them uninterupted - like eating out, sleeping in...I think it is going to be pretty great.

My close friend is in Norway at the moment, she's been there for about 4 weeks now and my other dearest friend booked her tickets to Canada. I'm feeling like my friends are moving on and it makes me want to move too. Or it makes me sad that they are going. But in the spirit of positive thinking - at least I will have somewhere new to visit.

I know it is probably a cliche - being the start of the year and all - but I want to try and be more positive about things - I was going to write "more outgoing" but I'm not sure that is possible or even necessary. Will settle for positivity.