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Wednesday November 12, 2008
05:21 PM
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how to be alone

I'm finding that I am staying up way too late & being tired the next day. If only being a 'night owl' would fit in with school too. I have finally got the two children into some kind of working sleep routine & they are both asleep by 8:30pm. I am then finding that I am staying up later & later just to get all my work done.

I kind of like the silent house too, just me and whatever I am working on & not much noise or distractions.

In a couple of weeks I am flying to Melbourne to be Maid of Honour (yes, I have been promoted) in a wedding. For a while I was aprehensive about leaving the two little ones at home & travelling by myself. I had fears that the plane would crash - but now I am feeling kind of calm about it. Maybe even excited. It will be nice to spend some time away from home & be in a different headspace.

Although too much time in side your own head can be bad. Lately I've been thinking about where my life has been going. I was feeling that I have wasted so much time being a full time mum for the past 6 years. I feel like I should have done more with the kids or more in my own life. My life kind of feels a bit aimless, or purposeless.

Maybe this is just some kind of post-thesis blues. Like I accomplished something and now there is the big SO WHAT!

I just don't really know what to do to give myself some motivation, to move forward with something. Any ideas?
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Changes can just happen. (Score:1)
Changes can just happen,They seem to Spark Up as, Confusion.

Yet, Maybe I can help you here. I have learned that what I have been through well it could not have been a waste of my time for I lived it and It was real,And well I am dearly loved for it.
As I can only imagine about your children.

Also remember,the words of John Lennon.

"Ah, people asking questions lost in confusion
Well I tell them there's no problem, only solutions
Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I've lost my mind
I tell them there's no hurry
I'm just sitting here doing time"

It is just your time now to make a move for what you want and would want...
They Best to you!:)

Marisela -- Wednesday November 12 2008, @10:18PM (#314314)
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Oh that lethal greener grass. (Score:0)
Bringing up two(?) kids and getting a degree sounds like quite an impressive achievement to me!

Bye the bye, I know of women whose whole dream is to have kids but don't have them. In a way, you're living their dream, so maybe the 'next' thing to do is appreciate what you have more, sort of savour it and get the full whack out of it. Otherwise you're living it but not living it, if you know what I mean.
Anonymous -- Thursday November 13 2008, @03:55AM (#314323)
    I guess.... (Score:1)
    after most big life events there's a big feeling of "so what now?"

    lately, I've been really in my head too much - I've been going over every decision ever made to get me to where I am because I'm wondering what *else* I could've done with my life....

    It's hard to get over those feelings of "what the hell am I supposed to do?"
    some days, I think life was a bit easier back when you had fewer options - like, your dad was a blacksmith, you learned it and then YOU were a blacksmith....
    nowadays, we have options and roles to play and dreams to try to fulfill....

    oh, and I like staying up late too :) I can't get myself to sleep before 2 am nowadays and I'm constantly struggling to wake up for work.... luckily I wake up just before 8, but still....
    everybody's lost -- Thursday November 13 2008, @10:24AM (#314346)
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     ...a chat with you and somehow, death loses its sting.
    • Re:I guess.... by M-in-Oz (Score:1) Saturday November 15 2008, @02:15PM

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