I think I have mused here before about the truthfulness of Morrissey's lyrics & the sometimes synchronous matching with my current situation. Well....heaven knows I'm miserable NOW!...I am looking for a job & it is just taking all the fun out of my life. I'm going to be self-indulgent for a bit because I know in reality that my Western life is better than some....but, geez, looking for employment makes me feel like I don't have the skills to do anything. Today I approached the 3 Universities here to hopefully get some tutoring work...like that isn't hotly contested. And who do you have to know? Then I've been looking at employment at the upcoming Fringe Festival - but you need a fair bit of experience & I don't really have any outside of my academic/research kind of thing.

So...guess I'll just keep looking. Hopefully something will come along. Or I could just leave this town & try my luck somewhere else.

Got my book order delivered from amazon today - my daughter was very pleased to received her 'Daisy' books. They are by Kes Gray & Nick Sharratt & are about a girl called Daisy, her mum & what they do. I love them because they seem 'real'...like the mum is kind of flawed....and Daisy does non-stereotypical gendered things. I got a book about incorporating creativity into everyday family life - which has given me plenty of inspiration.

Went out on the weekend to celebrate my friends birthday. We all went & then my partner took the kids down to the playground, they came back after about 40mins...then my son needed his nappy changed. I said "can you take him home & I'll finish my beer and be 5mins behind you"...so off the three of them went. Some 7 hours later I finally came home. My partner is now calling me a "Party Parent" & I was wondering if there was something wrong with me. My mum thinks I have inherited my (alcoholic) dads habits of not knowing when to end a party...but I don't think I am that bad. But I am going to try to not enjoy myself so much.

We also saw "The Dark Knight" on Sunday & loved it! HL was fantastically brilliant as the Joker & it made met think of what a loss his death was/is...but, it was great to go out and see a movie in a cinema. A rare treat!