My supervisor at University said she wanted to give me a slap today. This was becasue I have not done enough work, and she is right, I haven't. I have plenty of excuses as to why I haven't done it...mainly to do with the little ones...but I know that it really is all down to me. So I must get it done.

Coming to the end of something is also making me feel a little anxious. It will be the first time in about six years when I haven't had anything ahead of me...no thesis to write, no job to go to...it is daunting. On the one hand I am looking forward to just what the future might hold. I could use some time to figure out just what it is that I want to do. And then apply for some work! and of course sing "I was looking for a job..." You know the rest!

Often my daughter wakes during the night, scared of the dark and her dreams of vampires. So, I swap beds with her. Every time that I have slept in her bed, I have a dream about my ex-boyfriend. It's really strange...maybe it is something to do with the position of the bed, the feng shui? Or maybe it is because I am sleeping on my own.

In a journal entry from long ago I wrote of using a mental imager of Morrissey to help me out...sexually...well, on Satruday night my partner & I went to an engagement party. I got all dressed up, wore heels which killed my feet, had a new haircut, drank plenty of champagne. Anyway, we came home and watched some music clips on late night TV. It was the first time the children had slept over at my mums, so we were without them for the first time ever! Anyway, things started progressing in the bedroom & then "We Hate It When Our Friends Become Successful" came on...I stopped all action & watched the TV! Of course I did! However, I did feel slightly bad that I was more interested in watching Morrissey than the real life man in my bed.

Well...I'll leave you all with that...I've gotta get back to being a slave to that thesis that is waiting to be completed. Just watch the celebration on June 16th when it is done!!!