'permant damage'...well it seems permanent anyway, but maybe, it's not permanent. Whenever I've tried to get help I've been discouraged by the medical community from doing so. If I had plenty of money I know the same people would be shown to be fools or, calloused, both probably. There is a method but it's expensive and, my leg looks pretty normal, to the idiots that have no idea what I experience but have authority over what Canada will fund. There's a method I want to try, also, on my own. A cast. Make my own, and saw it so I can have it on only at night. Pad it with some foam to adjust the pressure, try to gradually reshape it but the surgeon that last 'worked' ( worked! MOre like, went through the motions, pretending and poorly, to be a competent surgeon ) told me that adult long bones, once healed, as mine has healed, healed, that is, physiologically, not structurally ( in my humble opinion ), cannot, he said, can not, be reshaped except by first breaking them again. So, this is why I haven't bothered to try the cast so far. Maybe my body will behave differently though. It's worth a try. It could only help, if just barely perceptibly. Otherwise, I will have to give 'Extreme Makeover' a call, or, will have to find some, charitable organization or some weirdo rich person to help. Or, live and die with the crookedness. It does hurt often, but not the leg itself so much as the structural stress in other areas, like neck, upper back, because of the structural awkwardness the crookedness in the leg creates in managing shifts of weight as I move. Our heads alone weigh, ten pounds maybe? A quick turn of the head can send my neck vertebrae into a grind for instance. Sometimes it's the knee or hip or shoulder that will take the brunt of compensating for the crookedness. Sometimes, I move very well, as I'm doing tonight except for, the slight cower, which probably no one else would notice, but I do. I guess I have pretty high standards of how I want to be able to move and hold myself.

Thanks Rant over. "Phew!" eh? "Shut up already." lol It really has been such a major issue to me. Not just physically but the social ramifications it has had the domino effect of bringing to bear. Stronger, in the end for it? Well, of course that is what I hope for and at least I can hope, and that's alot. I have even more than hope though. In a sense, I'm glad this has happened because I've learned lessons from it few people learn. Like, how to be wary of people meddling with my health, even if they are seen by the naiive general public to be heroes of health giving compassion.

How true one little inaccuracy in step puts the rest of the body out of whack.
You'd think that alone would have them (Drs) trying to fix the problem for you to help prevent other maladies from coming out of this one.

Glad to hear you can be happy in spite of it but please don't give up, somebody someday will *hear* you Red.