...Just another false alarm...

Indeed, it seems to be a recurring story, does it not? Yeah, you guess what's coming next...Let's just say I didn't organise a date with Jules. No. Instead, she is getting back with her ex-boyfriend, apparently, and therefore will not be going out on a date with me. What a surprise! It's just such a lame excuse though, don't you think? I mean the damned decent thing to do would to be bloody honest with me. But no, I'm not worth that.

Must be some kind of effect I have on girls. That coupled with the fact I woke up with two spots just below the corner of my lower lip. I mean, those were burst pretty easily (too graphic for you?), but they left a wee bit of a mark on me. I'm not sure what it is, actually. You can all say "oh it's not you Jacques, it's them". But that's five in a row now that have either said no or changed their mind at some point or other. They can't all be wrong, can they?

It was doubly disappointing, because of something else that happened today. Remember how I was telling you I was getting a bit jealous that some guy was speaking to Jules the other day? Well, I saw the guy today, and said hello to him. He actually said "Didn't know about you, ya stud!" I was like "huh?" and he nodded in the general direction of Jules. I was all pleased and said "thanks" to him. But it all counts for jackshit now.

Maybe it's just destined to be this way for me and girls. Never living in wedded bliss...Celibacy seems like a feasible (yet unwanted) option. My local priest is always saying I would make a great priest, which is his desperate way of trying to attract some guys forward for the priesthood. Maybe God's trying to tell me something. I hope not though. Even although I am a devout Catholic, and I thoroughly appreciate the work that priests do, it's not for me, y'know? I want the things that priests can't have. But...Is it ever gonna happen? It's becoming increasingly unlikely day-by-day...

So, we go to work tomorrow, having to endure her. She was trying to be all nice to me, but I'm still not best pleased. I just get the feeling she never wanted to go out on a date in the first place. If that was the case, why didn't she just tell me from the off? I hate that. Lies. Deceit. Maybe I'm reading too much into it, but I can't help but feel cheated...

Well, I'll be off. Update you all tomorrow, if I'm not too pissed off. Take care.