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I'm not the man you think I am...I am a poor freezingly cold soul...I have just discovered that prudence never pays. Now, we must wait for the right time
Sunday December 27, 09

So this is Christmas...

08:13 PM

A merry Christmas to one and all - I hope you all had a very peaceful day. Mine was largely non-eventful - truth be told, I was just pleased to have some time off work, and what better way to use some time off than to help celebrate the birth of our Lord.

It seems to be that I only ever post an entry on here these days around Christmas time, which seems to frequently coincide with an appropriate time for reflection (ignore the nonsense drunken text entry of earlier). The main time to look towards another year in hope and nervous anticipation. So, my hopes (nay, predictions) for 2010 can probably be summarised as follows:

1) Moving across the pond. 2009 has brought me perhaps the closest I've been to upping sticks so far, to fulfil a lifelong ambition. Besides family (and what few there are of them!), there's very little keeping me here these days. No more exams; I'm losing all of my friends to relationships (how dare they!) or their own global movements; no prospects of a meaningful relationship (or otherwise) of my own here. The world has become smaller, and that's something to be exploited and embraced. Sure, I'm afraid, but it's a good afraid. The move should happen towards summer/autumn 2010.

2) Become a better person. I'm a bit sick of myself these past six months, and I'm unsure why. I can just feel my moral compass being gradually eroded, with alcohol and other influences dragging me away from where I should be at. Time to readjust to the required central focus. Look at what a nice fella that Rocky was - despite people making fun of him and ripping into him, he was always selfless. I'd like to get there one day (and no, I don't pity the fool).

3) Become more motivated at work. Probably interlinked with point 2, the past few weeks have seen my desire at work becoming even more separated from what it once was. And I'm unsure why - through university and the early work days, I had a bit of hunger about me. Maybe that was driven by fear (God knows how stressed I'd become, no question), but something's missing these days. I have no desire to earn any more money, no interest in promotions or anything else. But it's no excuse to be so disinterested to the point of boredom and kidding yourself and others on. Time to readjust and make the most of life.

4) Become less lazy. Whenever I get home from work, I sit on a laptop, pretending to work or cruising that bloody Facebook for hours on end. God knows why. I've made it a vow to avoid the laptop as much as possible in 2010 (except for posting on here a bit more regularly). Read books (maybe not fiction ones, but at least learn something new), or watch some things I enjoy. None of this wasting time. Oh, and help out more around the house. Those living on their own have to - why shouldn't I? Especially if the move mentioned in 1 is to come to fruition - this is a must.

So, four steps to success in 2010. 2009 has seen me get a new car, become a homeowner, finally become qualified, and take the first steps towards shaping the rest of my life. I'm now 25 years old (I can't believe I was 16 when I first posted on here, some eight short years ago), and no longer a youngster. As Jeff Jarrett used to say, enough is enough, and it's time for a change.

Until next time, I wish everyone a pleasant and peaceful new year celebration - see you in 2010.

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  • Wonderful journal entry! Best of wishes to you in twenty ten, and hope you get to accomplish if not all, some of your goals. :) BTW, twenty five is NOT old...how i wish i'd realized that when i was 25!! Have a happy new year!
    Anonymous -- Monday December 28 2009, @10:27PM (#348502)


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