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JacquesTheLad
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I'm not the man you think I am...I am a poor freezingly cold soul...I have just discovered that prudence never pays. Now, we must wait for the right time
Saturday July 25, 09

T'is the season for some folly

04:52 PM

Six months since the last "blog", and I don't really know what's happened to 2009. In the absence of any real pressure, it just seems like I'm in a bit of limbo - not really sure what to do with life.

The past few weeks I've tried to fill the evenings with sports. While this sounds like an opportunity to broaden my social horizons, it really hasn't - more a case of making sure that I avoid going home, and yet for no real reason. I suppose I have a little bit of the Peter Pan about me - not really wanting to grow up and face the harsh concerns that adult life brings. Work isn't one such concern, as it's work to live, not live to work. But the other facets of life are, and yet I don't think I'll ever master them. I'm not even sure I want to master them.

I have a couple of weddings coming up in August, just before I go on holiday. I even have managed to snare someone to go with to one of them. Unfortunately, and true to one of The Smiths' finest efforts, I'm unsure where I exactly sit with this. Are her intentions that this is a purely platonic, friendly thing to do? Or would she like (as I would) for this to be something a bit more?

The option has probably been there for me to propose something before attending the wedding, but I've decided discretion is the better part of valour, and as such ensuring I have someone to attend the wedding with is more important than any short-term gain that could arise. I've decided to try and enjoy the wedding in isolation, and not to be too disappointed in the (probably highly likely) event that the company is a one-off event. I haven't been let down in quite a while now, so a knock back shouldn't be that demoralising.

In terms of other emotional growth, the desire to move away still burns strong. Unfortunately, the "crunch" has led to a significant contraction in the job market, making the mobility a bit more difficult. The timeframe is probably a year away, but the groundwork really needs to begin just now I believe. The aforementioned laziness has precluded me from completing a CV, and the lack of motivation has ground me down. I need a kick up the arse.

In other news, I may soon become a property owner of sorts. Maybe this will be a turning point to maturity, only a few years too late. It remains to be seen.

Until the next update (whenever this is), I hope you're all well and living life that way it should be.

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