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JacquesTheLad
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I'm not the man you think I am...I am a poor freezingly cold soul...I have just discovered that prudence never pays. Now, we must wait for the right time
Friday January 11, 02

I'm feeling very sick and ill today...

02:17 PM

Ugh. I have had chronic pains in my stomach for the past 24 hours. I don't know if it's over worry about the whole M situation, or what...Nah, it's probably just the random ill feeling one gets from time to time. I'm sure it will pass. Might leave alcohol out this weekend though, just to be on the safe side...

Well, I saw M today. But she didn't seem to be in the mood to actually stand with me and talk to me. She's probably waiting on me to go up to her and tell her whatever I'm going to. I'm still really unsure. I mean, I dearly want a girlfriend. Everyone on here that reads this worthless journal knows that. But do I want it to be M? A month or so ago, I'd have said yes. But now...I really don't know.

I think a bit of the trouble is that I harp on endlessly about wanting a girlfriend, and how life is so unfair that I can't get one. Yet, whenever the opportunity presents itself to me, I seem to take some sort of detour. Maybe I am too fussy. Should I wait for the right girl? Is there even such a thing? I mean, for God's sake, I'm 17. Sometimes I feel I should just let go. Yet, there's something deep inside that I don't like doing that...

I don't know. Hopefully the weekend will make things a bit clearer to me...I'm working tomorrow. My best mate at work is working as well. Hopefully we'll be on the same lunch together, so that we can discuss the situation. Then again, we probably won't be. So we'll skive, as usual :-) And also, I dunno if C is working tomorrow. Argh, too many situations! The pains of being 17...

I'm sorry folks for going on and on about this. The way I talk about it, you'd think it was something huge. Yet, it's something extremely trivial. Banal, in fact. Thanks for all your advice though. It is much appreciated.

School-life just got a great deal easier. The arguing between J and her nemesis should be calming down quite a bit soon. The girl that she's arguing with got an unconditional offer for the university course she wants to do (Cell Biology at St Andrew's - maybe you could meet up with her BWTT? :-) ), so she's leaving school next week. Hurrah!

Smiths - That is ok, I always enjoy whatever advice you have to offer me! Even if I don't always agree with it, I enjoy seeing your point of view and taking it into consideration. I must admit, I'm a bit sick of all these initials myself. I may create a little code in my next entry in order to make identification a lot easier. Thank you again!

HiG - E-mail coming, girl drowning...

Mr Tseng - I greatly appreciate all of the fantastic stuff you do for this site! Although I don't always show it (the last time I spoke to you, I was moaning a bit about not being informed of the Sweet and Tender Hooligans appearing on British TV - totally not your fault...). So, thank you for giving me this journal, and I look forward to the new features!

Sleepwalk - Thank you for being so understanding! I really enjoy your journal entries (I'm sure I've said this before...I'l re-iterate it anyway though...). Yes, I suppose all the women in my life will keep me occupied...! :-) And don't hesitate for any help with math, ok? Love ya!

DWGT - Seems like virtually a perfect day! Oh, but it was the Feeder drummer, not guitarist, who sadly decided it upon himself to take his own life...Thanks for the concern anyway. And thank you very much for your advice. I really love seeing everything that you write! You're always so very upbeat, even in the face of adversity...I wish I was a lot more like you! I look forward to the e-mail! :-)

BWTT - Yes, I'm quite sick that Aaliyah is getting to number 1, simply through her death. In that case, surely everybody should go out and buy the Feeder EP, Just A Day, and get that to number 1? I don't think so. I might buy it though. Simply to hear that Police cover (it is The Police, isn't it?) Personally, I think it's all too coincidental that their most recent release has a "suicidal anthem" on it. But hey, I don't know...And thanks for the advice (it was advice, don't worry!), it gives me even more to think about...I have already flipped a coin. It told me to go for it...I'll explain all the mathematicians in my next entry. I think it's due time these people were brought to justice. You never encountered any of that junk, sadly, because you never covered the joys of Advanced Higher Maths :-) It's a lot different from Higher...I'll get back to you with it next entry!

Anyway, take care everyone. Thanks again for being there. I'll keep you posted...



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