And yet, I don't know whether to cut it off simply through spite.

Here's the story. I dashed home from school today in order to get ready in the ten minutes I had before setting off for the train station for work. Halfway down to the station, I meet M walking home from school with one of her friends, who quickly leaves as her house is in a different direction. Anyway, M says she wants to talk to me. I listen. And on follows an interesting story...

Apparently, M now likes me in that way. THAT way. The way in which I liked her before. The interesting word is BEFORE. Do I still have any feelings for her? Anyway, she asked me what I thought, and what I wanted to do about it if anything - remain friends, or something more...And yet, I just feel that if I were to say that I DID want more, it would feel as if it was for the wrong reasons. For the point of having a girlfriend.

What do I do? I asked her if I could have a think about it, and think is exactly what I will do. I mean, I think I may have some feelings for her, but in that same way I still have feelings for other girls too...So, not only would it be unfair on me, it would be unfair on her as well. On the other hand, I might still feel really strongly about her. But I just don't know. I hope she has the time to wait for me. It could be a whole weekend that I need to think things through. I just don't know...Please, feel free to throw in advice from all angles, good or bad!

Ah dear. Oh, I got an A for my Maths homework. A. The only one in the class to get above a C. I was well chuffed! That De Moivre question that I thought I had screwed up was worth 11 marks. I scribbled something down that made some form of logical sense the morning, around half an hour before I handed it in, and I ended up with 9 out of 11 marks for the question! A touch of genius...

Sleepwalk - Now I can acknowledge what you said fully! Thank you very much for the compliment. I find your journal entries very exciting indeed. And hey, if you ever need help with Math, don't be afraid to ask me! After all, I am the King of Mathematics...Pythagoras, Gaussian, Fibonacci, Einstein, De Moivre, JacquesTheLad...

Biffo - Thanks for the kind words. It kinda struck me hard the news of Mr Lee's death. He wasn't actually your typical rock star - he always spoke out about how drugs and alcohol were really bad, and how they just had nothing but bad influences on life (he said they were a waste of money, which I whole-heartedly agree with, although I do drink alcohol occasionally...). Anyway, it was a sad passing.

HiG - Don't worry about me, I wasn't that deeply affected. If it was Morrissey, well, I'm not sure how I'd react. As for your love for Neo, well I can only imagine what it's like. Luckily I've not quite had that yet (I'm drifting at the moment, as you can see with the whole M situation - it's my first chance of a date in ages, and I'm swithering...), but I can only imagine your pain. I've had something similar, but nothing really crushing. I'll e-mail you soon.

Laura - I am so sorry for not having e-mailed you. I will do it by the end of the week. I am so tired and mentally exhausted this evening however. And I thought your little story could actually tell a lot to us in life. Thank you. I hope you understand why I haven't got back to you. I am sorry again...

Well, I best be off. And do some thinking. Like what should I do...Answers on a postcard please! I'll probably check back in tomorrow...Bye!