It makes none...

I'm feeling very sick and ill today. For the first time in living memory, I'm feeling really weak, both physically and mentally. I have no idea what's wrong, but I hope it's not here for the long term. It's not only that - I feel that my friends are deserting me. I'm getting some pretty hard knocks in PE (which I'd understand if I was a big guy, but I'm only 5'6"), and my love life is a shambles.

Other than that, I'm fine...There are three saving graces - my female friend (let's call her J), who always listens to my problems, my moans and my groans, and tries her best to give me advice. The other two are the girls (let's say...F and M) that are really nice and I like. They're both sweethearts. I just don't think I could bear either one of them turning me down, so that's why I'm not asking either of them out on a date. Maybe my confidence will get better, and I'll pluck up the courage to ask one of them out soon. For now, I'll try and get them as friends.

I foolishly spoke to this girl today (let's call her U), thinking that I'd get cheered up - maybe even get some advice. I said that whenever I take any interest in a girl, it always blows up in my face. You know what she said? She said "That's your problem". I felt like shouting in her face and calling her all the names under the sun. I didn't, and I actually felt worse than I probably would have if I had shouted at her.

It's as if nobody is willing to take an interest in me. I'm probably just wallowing in the proverbial self-pity, but I really like it when somebody actually comes up to me, asks me how I am, and starts a conversation with me. It makes me feel wanted. It even brightens up my day. It's something similar to this journal system - whenever somebody has something to say to me, I get quite happy. I try to repay this by having something to say about your various plights in my entries. What goes around, comes around. Sadly, relationships doesn't seem to fall under this category, as it seems that I'm destined to not have a girlfriend in a good while.

Not a lot of journal entries since my last one, so sadly I can't cast my spell of wisdom upon your situations. Sigh...

"Not until the next time..."