It didn't happen. And I although I told myself before not to, I feel surprisingly like shit now.

I went there at around 8ish, gave her present to her and got a beer. Then I sat with my friends for what seemed an eternity. There was one time in the night that I tried to speak to her. I tried making conversation, but she'd reply to my comments with one word answers, not really giving me much to talk about.

Later on in the night, I went over to one of her friends to ask her if she liked me at all. She said "No, I don't think so", then went on to talk about how it wasn't me, just that she didn't seem to like any guys in that way. That didn't really help any though - it still doesn't maker her like me any more than any other guy. So I sat for the rest of the party (about two hours or so) like an absolute pillock. I sat, rather depressed, with nobody really wanting to talk to me. Can't say I blame them...

In those two hours that passed, she must have passed before my very eyes about twenty times. Surely one of those times she could have sat down next to me and tried to talk to me? Seemed to be making some more effort with the others that were there...My female friend who was there was trying to support me, saying she didn't know why she wasn't interested as she'd said nice things about me before, but in the end it was pretty much irrelevant. Just seems that I'm an utter disaster with girls.

At the end of the night, me and my mate said goodbye to her, and she came and gave us both a hug. I just scooted off before she could really say anything, although I think she just left us before we even left the house anyway...All-in-all, it was pretty much a disaster. I then received a text from my female friend that was trying to comfort me, saying that she spoke to her and she said that she still wanted me to talk to her, but not as an item yet. Yeah right. Forgive me for being a bit of a cynic, but she's just trying to soften the blow. She's just not interested, and she wants to try her best not to hurt me.

Thanks for all your help guys. I just wish I could have repaid it with a happy ending. Seems that my life's gonna be full of that though, unhappy endings after such promising starts. I guess I'll just have to build myself up again, until the next time...

"So you go and you stand on your own, and you leave on your own, and you go home, and you cry and you want to die..."