Well, where do I begin? It was just a normal Saturday, after a party on the Friday where I'd drunk a few beers in true teenager style, but getting quite depressed at the way life is going.

I went to the new cinema in town during the afternoon to catch a movie with friends. Coming home, I was so depressed - there was no dinner until 9:30, which meant that I was doing nothing during the evening. So I went on the Net, checked up Morrissey-solo and talking to friends.

At about half-past midnight, my friend's girlfriend came on. We normally talk, but tonight she was annoyed at some of my other friends not liking her boyfriend. She talked about that for a few minutes, then started telling me something I wished was true.

She told me that at the party the night before, she was feeling things for me that she shouldn't have been feeling. She said she loved her boyfriend, but for a split-second, she just wanted to kiss me. Fact is, she didn't. And that's what it boils down to - it's all very well saying something, it's a totally different thing doing it.

I'm still looking for a girl to like me in that kind of way. It's kind of ironic that the only girl that seems to take an interest in me is taken by one of my friends. Really quite sad. And that's what depresses me. Loneliness. Nobody taking any interest in me. Nobody caring.

Will it come along one day? I reckon this one could go on forever...and therefore, I'm doomed.