had a shite week. overwhelmed by feelings of self-disgust. especially about my looks. one part of me knows i'm being self-indulgdent, but im still overwhelmed by the negative thoughts. obsessing over every flaw: my crooked nose, my short upper lip which makes my front teeth stick out like a buck toothed guy from luxembourg (yep even guys feel shit about their looks). i've thought about getting my lip seen to, but im worried about surgery and all that, not to mention the money factor. most of the time i can live with my looks, but from time to time im weighed down by these negative feelings. from there, it's a rapid downward spiral, examining every failure and shortcoming. having such a poor self-image makes everything harder, as you feel that other people also find you repugnant. going out and tackling the world becomes an ordeal.
anyway, sorry for the overshare. just thought i'd get it out. i feel like a little emo wanker lol. nothing like a good whinge to end the working week.