Just the other night, I had a 4 hour conversation w/ this man from a section of Liverpool. We had known each other from this one chat room for almost a year. Well, we finally got up the nerve to PM each other. He then, asked me to post a photo as he did for me. He looked nice as I posted mine back. Well, he then, proceeded to ask me for my phone number! We ended up talking on the phone for 4 hours! It was nice to feel "approached". Well, here's the done-deal part. Last night, he phoned again. This time though, he was telling me about some photo and asking me about something in it. Well, as it turns out, the photos he'd seen had been from another link! He had not even seen me. So, he & I worked it out where I re-posted the correct ones. I firmly take the blame on the first part however, he did admit to me on the phone he was drunk (on night one). As it turns out, the photos he thought were me were of my sister!!!!!! There used to be a photo of her w/ me in my photobucket photo album (that's the one I sent). It is my fault. I told him that was my sister & myself. He then got all quiet & told me he was not attracted to me at all. In quite laymen's terms he stated, "I wouldn't go to bed w/ you but, I'd have you as a friend." That hurt me so bad. I should've not sent him that photo & have at least explained to him. I do remember though how, I kept telling him who I was in the photo. It was his "drunkeness" which lead to him believe the other way. The conversation ended w/ us stating that if we'd like to call, call & if not, have a nice life. I have a clear feeling I'll probably not hear from him again even though only the night before, life was literally grand. He expressed to me also in no uncertain terms that, it's not my body that's unattractive to him, it's my face. That was like a slap in the face (which too bad couldn't rearrange things).
This, in turn, has lead me to very valuable lessons:
1) always clarify clearly & accurately whom you are in a photo or just don't post one w/ other people in it.
2) before agreeing to plans to meet-up or even know a person more personally, make sure they are somewhat chemically attracted to you.
3) never believe in what people say about that attraction unless you have an intuition that they are truthful.
Bottom line in regards to love, meeting-up, matchmaking, etc. I have decided last night to just remain quiet & reserved. I am giving up on it. I'm really just tired of it all. I have even prayed for a long time at church too. I am just fed-up. Having him tell me too, that it is NOT my body that is unattractive either but, my face makes things hurt even more harder. I am deeply bruised by this considering, I can't change my face. Sure, you're all given what God has given you. I just don't understand why some are given more happiness than others. Hearing him about my face & it's ugliness was not the first time this happened either. That's another reason, I'm giving up.
Well, I remain your friends & I'm just taking a break meaning, I'll continue to post & all but, it'll be a break in the "love" fields. I just need to get off this thing, really. Good luck to you all.