I felt negative from when I first saw Andy Rourke in Bristol. I drunk a slush puppy type soft drink, frozen crushed ice and fruit flavour I shouldn't of as they are not good for you! I was banned from all rubbish drinks and food. Andy Rourke looked at my drink I think he thought it was alcholic.
Andy Rourke had a little, pet dog with him. I thought it was his dog, I thought it was sweet. Then I found out it was the club owners dog.
I didn't go in clubs and DJ things but this seemed nice. Andy Rourke was nice. I thought after that, that Andy Rourke was my friend. I did get worried when he shouted at a girl something to do with she was a vegetarian and only liked 'meat is murder'. I got worred because I am a sort of vegan. But it was her fault she must of winded Andy up.
Andy Rourke is so sweet. He wears nice clothes as he knows about the fashons. I always wanted Andy Rourke to be my friend. I didn't go in clubs before that. That must of been the first club I went in, that one in Bristol. I saw an advert round Bristol for Andy Rourke. I have always loved The Smiths and I really wanted to meet Andy Rourke who is my favorite. I ain't into famous people. Even most 'normal' people hate me, so I thought Andy Rourke would too. Andy hates me like all the rest do now ofcause. I never imagined in a million years someone great like Andy Rourke would want to go out with me, i have never had a boyfriend any way. I just wanted him to be my friend that was it, I thought I could help him. I thought I was really lucky to of met Andy Rourke and I really thought he was my friend! I thought Andy was the nicest man in the universe. But I feel very hurt by him now, I cry because I would of done anything for him. I can cook a bit and clean things I really wanted to be of help to Andy Rourke so much. I must of done something really wrong but what did I do????
(I am not used to clubs and things, I feel funny in them like I shouldn't be there because I am bad and because of all the people and they probably don't want me there.)