Oh my god. it's Robby!
spontaneously luminescent
I just don't function as well on my own, what about you?
I just don't function as well on my own, what about you?
Reading back "anonymous", yeah, I love that show, recently been re-watching it the last month or so. I find watching more comedy helps when I'm so down.
2. Your love life sounds too complicated for me, good you seem to be ok with it.
3. I'm doing fine on weekdays, but weekends are hard, basically drinking and smoking all through Friday night, Saturday, then just recovering on Sunday, it's an old cycle for me, never has been good and just spirals ever downward.
4. No, I don't actually miss this particular her that much, we fought way too much, so when I came back from trip to the States and she had gone all "Christian cult"* on me, it was just too much. I went with her to church on Sunday a bunch of times, but eliminating anyone from my personal life that wasn't Christian? Was just nuts, one can take things too far. Scary thing is all that I was willing to do for her just to not be alone.
5. Thinking now that more than needing another person is that I need the idea of one so I care about things I should already care about like, saving $, my health, keeping the house clean, getting enough sleep, you know, shit other people just take for granted as stuff they got to do, well, I'm 42, and I've never learned that.
6. It's nice to be back, seems a bit deader than I remember, but perhaps that's cuz I skip the "trolling threads" mostly.
Hello "nobody's nothing"
1. Some unsolicited advice, don't measure future relationships by the one "true relationship" I spent a decade with one person and even though that was long ago now, it still bleeds into everything, this is mostly a bad thing I've come to believe. It can both leave one never being satisfied with someone else or even worse, settling which is what I was doing since last Decemeber.
2. "Hail Mary" I like that.
3. Brother if you think women looking at you weird when you are 22, yikes, being over 40 and single, they defo suspicious.
Thing is too, here in China there is a shortage of women believe it or not, the one child policy has created a huge gender gap in favor of men and the pressures on women to get married and have kids by 30 are immense.
Doesn't leave many over 30 women for me to date, so when I met one, boy did I go for it, big mistake.
Anyways, got students to teach, thank god, really their positive feelings are what get me through.
Ps: yesterday, the 11th was "Singles Day" here in China, only amplifying my thinking about this crap, luckily it's over now
*=my friends back hom think its hilarious I go all the way to China and get involved with a crazy Christian girl, something I would never even consider back home