relient k - who i am hates who ive ben (about depression)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ry1itkhfODo
"I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific end
You might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life
Stop right there! That's exactly where I lost it
See that line? Welle I never should've crossed it
Stop right there! i never should have said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Have finally begun to create so much pressure
That Id sooon blow up and
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart
And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life
Stop right there! That's exactly where I lost it
See that line? I never should've crossed it
Stop right there! I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
Stop right there! That's exactly where I lost it
See that line? Well, I never should've crossed it
Stop right there! Well, I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been
'Cause who I've been only ever made me
So sorry for the person I became
So sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been"
this lyric means a lot to me and really any song from that album is albsoulutely gold. the song more than useless encapsulates how i feel about myself perfectly. the line where he says i tend to leave most oppertunites wasted. i grew up with people telling me im gifted im gifted but i never believed it.
relient k - more than useless
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1oN9vskt4w
"I feel like
I would like to be somewhere else
Doing something that matters
And I'll admit here
While I sit here, my mind wastes away
And my doubts start to gather
What's the purpose?
It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
And I'm just scared
So scared that I'll fail you
Sometimes I think
That I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why
Why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me
I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
So I say if I can't
Do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial
That life can give you will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
Too late, look
My date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet
That regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run
Sometimes I think
That I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why
Why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me
I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless
And I never knew, I knew this
Was gonna be the day
Gonna be the day that I would do something right
Do something right for once
I noticed
I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it
I spent it
Convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me
(Without me)
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
(Without me)
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time
It's my life
And my right to use it like I should
Like he would
For the good
Of everything that I would ever know
I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless
And I never knew, I knew this
Was gonna be the day
Gonna be the day that I would do something right
Do something right for once"
