CrystalGeezer
My secret's my enzyme.
well, while I merely live in the aspiring first world now, but I was lucky to have an epiphany deep in the freezing cold(to me)of a Caucasus Mountain winter a few years ago
the situation was brought about by the bitterness of the weather, my isolation and loss of electricity that went on for weeks
at first, it drove me crazy, furious at times, but eventually something extraordinary happened, my mind and body calmed down enough at some point that I just surrendered to well, everything my situation, the fact that I was powerless to change much of it and that waiting around for the power to come back on was just absurd
This is a liberating feeling. I allow myself to get mad at times, but it's healthier to make the best of a situation. I sometimes feel like a soul reborn into the body of a bird allowed to fly, but reborn into a pet bird trapped in a cage. It's hard to explain why I feel this way, but something about your assessment makes sense.