Youth is wasted on the young. Most of it is wasted by trying to deal with our parents. What are my "life goals"? What are my "long term plans"? Why am I not married? When am I ever going to have kids? "We think that you possibly have adult ADD with symptoms of depression, autism, and mania"? "Will you ever be normal"?

Do I dare to suggest that they make some changes? No. Do I mention to my mother that my mother is crazy? No. Do I continue to attempt having a relationship with her just because guilt and tradition tell me to? Sometimes. But do I still attempt to make the best of it? Yes.

I AM TIRED.

Who says (quietly and simply), "Well dear, maybe you should end your life if you're having so many problems with it at this point."

I feel like putting it on video and sending it to that damn Dr. Phil that she keeps quoting.

Oh the irony.

I'm just going to throw myself into my work. Perhaps it will help. Or it will cause me to have a breakdown. Who can tell?

Beaten by life-