He thought we should talk, I agreed.
We met up at a hilltop scenic point, an old hangout of ours.
It was awkward in the beginning, we started off with the usual small talk - he asked how I was doing, and I asked WHAT he was doing (there), seen as he’s in a serious relationship with his live-in girlfriend. Well we talked and talked (in the car) for hours – it was really good to see and hang out with him – we hugged quite a bit, at those moments, he would stroke my face and twirl my hair. We listened to Live in Dallas like 10 times that night. It was special.

But I honestly don’t know what’s going on with him.
What was he doing there really?? He hasn’t even been living with the girl for two full months yet. Aren't they supposed to be at that "Honeymoon" stage of the relationship??? Or does he finally realized that moving someone in after only knowing them two weeks was a huge mistake???

He said a lot of really beautiful things to me that evening. When I asked him what he was doing there with me replied “the same thing you were doing at my job today – you could have gone anywhere for that. ” But he said he was glad I did. He said he missed me and wanted to see me. Like I said before, I was totally heartbroken by him pushing me aside and falling in love with someone else. Thinking this way is wrong and horribly selfish of me. We spilt up for a reason, and it was all my doing, but yet it’s been incredibly difficult for me to let him fly. But I think it’s because we were such wonderful friends for many many years before we got involved, and that is why I hope that I will always have a special place in his heart.

So I felt assured that he still cares about me when he said that his heart stopped and the butterflies went wild when I walked in the door because he was shocked, yet very happy to see me. * that’s all I needed to know *

Well, his girlfriend must have called his wireless 5 times… so we called it a night at 4:30 am. He asked if he could see me the next day and he also said that he would like to spend a whole day with me – he suggested his next day off.

That was the day before yesterday!! Heehee : )

So there will be a part three to this saga…

Who ever said that having your cake and eating too was a bad thing???