Tkibuli here I come
by, June 29, 2012 at 12:55 PM (435 Views)
So this past weekend, in the aftermath of one of Nugo's drunken rages, he denied me the right to use the internet and even though I both just a little over a week to endure of his behavior and knew he would likely forget about his denying me the internet in a few days, I decided that enough was enough and made the hundred kilometer journey by bus to see my, well, basically my "boss". For once I kept my resolve when speaking to her, sometimes its hard to around L. her sweet words, the fact that she is extremely beautiful, these have distracted me in the past. This time she promptly got on the phone with Nugo to get my computer access returned to me, which is only just, since I have been paying the entire bill for almost since I got here! It did not stop there, she assured me she would have another host family as soon as possible, I think she really understood this time how important this was to me that it get done before I am supposed to return and at least knowing the details about them before I left on my "vaca" was the minimum I was hoping for. Well, she did better than that, I am going to my new town and family on Monday, just 3 days before I go back to Cali for 2 months. Thank god for this, for so many reasons, but the one that springs to mind right now is that the die is really cast. Today L. calls Nugo to inform him that I will be leaving on Monday. And good thing too, because my resolve is already weakening, thoughts turn to how much harder it will be to see Alison once I return(though she may be somewhere else in Georgia by then too) anyways.
& more importantly, since the last big blow-up, things have been fine here, almost good I would say, it leaves me wondering if I did not over react, but in my head I know I have not. As I write this, it has me wondering: "Perhaps this is similar(all be it less intense) to what is was like to be married to me?" All raging storm one minute, then kind and sweet the next. I find it terrible to be around, I cannot imagine how worse it would be if I had endured this with someone I was "romantic" with. Gosh, I still have so much to atone for. Enough about that though, really just happy to know I will not be staying here anymore and have another place, hopefully a better place to go...
ps: my access is still limited however, when I am not using it, Nino takes it away to use somewhere else, and I have no idea whether she will be bringing back here before I leave on Monday, so this may goodbye for a while