So Far From Where I Intended To Go

Spent all night cleaning and organizing because I wanted my bedroom to look perfect.I even organized my closet.Everything had to be folded in a certain way or I would start all over again.My ocd rearing it`s ugly head.Needless to say I am now exhausted.When I talked to Mom this morning she asked me if I had taken my pills.I couldn`t lie to her of course and I said no.She told me it`s very important for you to take your medication like your supposed to.Yes I know she`s` right.I just felt like I need to get stuff done.I get all winded up and can`t sit still.Sometimes I just feel like... oh I don`t know.

I was going through all of my Morrissey show photos and little bits of memorabilia.It was so nice to look through all of that stuff.It also reflects some of the very lovely Morrissey fans that have been very generous.Like my old pen friend who sent me some lovely photos and an actual piece of Morrissey`s shirt that she got when he threw his shirt in to the audience.Where ever you are thank you so much.It meant and still means a lot to me.To my other Moz pal who has been an amazing friend thank yo so much.I organized all my little bits in to a lovely album with a houndstooth cover because it reminded me of Morrissey`s jacket.Looking through these things kind of made me sad too.I won`t be able to catch any shows on this tour.One is a bit close to home but I will be missing out because I don`t drive.My sis who usually would have taken me can`t because she`s got a new baby.I will have to live on little live clips from here and there.