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The Little Plastic Box Under My Bed

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Tibby
, April 19, 2012 at 04:08 AM (487 Views)
Took out the little plastic box that I keep underneath my bed.The one that I keep all the things that I will need to make those thoughts go away.In it I keep my razor blades and my band aids.

Carving on my arms and legs.Please make those thoughts go away.I want to breathe.I want to sleep.I want to feel some peace.

Sometimes it hurts.Sometimes it does not.Other times I feel alive.Other times I feel numb.It gets the job done.Till the time comes and I need it again.It is my drug.

Tibbs
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  1. 123xyz's Avatar
    Jesus christ , what are you doing to yourself ? I realise I shouldn't be taking that tone with you, given that I don't know you at all but the horror compels me.

    Are you seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist ? Are you taking any prescribed medications for your tendency to self-harm? There are all sorts of good ones (with very few side-effects) like most of the SSRIs.

    Please don't keep doing this to yourself. As I expect you know, self-harm can be a rehearsal for something far more terrible. Don't give yourself the chance to work up to that. If you don't have family/friends to talk with, there are others available i.e professionals who won't be embarrassed/disgusted/bored by what it is that you have to say.

    Sorry about the advice ( it must be the last thing you feel like hearing), but taking such risks with yourself isn't worth it. Stay ...