Originally Posted by 123xyz Hold on ( to what or whom, I can't say) ... but hold on ... Thank you.I`m trying.
Hold on ( to what or whom, I can't say) ... but hold on ...
If u have some money, try changing your environment; move away from your current state. Visit a country/friend you always wanted to go and stay longer. Somewhere happier. Start anew. New hope, new beginning. Good luck.
Originally Posted by Oh my god, it's Robby! drawing, sounds interesting, maybe you could take up painting? I do like to paint.I haven`t done it in a while though.
drawing, sounds interesting, maybe you could take up painting?
I do have help.I have a psychiatrist and a therapist and am on meds. Thank you though.
Please ask someone for help.
I don't know how I should be responding to this post - if indeed at all ? I take it those cuts are yours ? It takes such black courage and fortitude to self-inflict to that extent ... a courage and fortitude which is yours. Yours to pump into other outlets and options. The same determination which enabled you to do that is yours to channel in other directions. It's not fair and it's not fun. And , of course, I doubt it's your fault that you ended up in such an extreme corner. It's the world's most boring response - but how are the meds going ? There are so many variants in terms of dosage and specific medications ... there's an exceedingly good chance that some combination of SSRIs/SNRIs/SNDRIs/DRIs/MAOIs/Tricyclics/mood stabilisers/dopamine facilitators / etc./etc./ that will work. So many others have found relief ( after years of needless suffering through incompetent/indifferent psychopharmacologists ) that there's no reason to believe you are any different to those who felt all was lost only to discover genuine help via a chance combination of pharmacology/psychotherapy. I don't believe for a moment it's a case of prayer (!) or of you not having tried hard enough. From what I can see , you're quite clearly at the end of your tether ... no one ends up there without already having tried as hard as they can to avoid it. You seem exhausted by efforts that , apparently, very few can understand - efforts to resist what , I can only guess, must feel like the painful drag of gravity ... y'know , almost irresistible in a way ... I'm often around on these boards . I'd like to hear more specifics about the counsellors/psychologists you've consulted in the past - drop me a PM, yours , 123xyz
Thank you HIG.I haven`t hurt myself.I`m trying very hard to hold on.I think it`s really great that acting makes you happy.I want to find happiness and peace.I hope it wants to find me.Thanks again.
Oh, Tibby. I'm so sorry to hear this. I was worried about you and "H" let me know you were okay. I was hoping you had found some peace. I fight depression every day. I still have to make myself get out of bed. I haven't painted, or created anything for that matter, on canvas in nearly three years. I find myself up for it and then it's gone. But, I've been forcing myself to do more. I have to - or this ship is going to sink. I relocated which has proved to be somewhat helpful and I've thrown myself into acting full force as it's the only time I feel "good". I will keep you in my prayers. I have said that life is what you make it, and I believe that. You've got to want to do things, but I know that it's so hard to "want to" at anything when facing such darkness. You've got to find the one thing that makes you a little happy and take it to the moon, I guess. For now, it's working for me. Next week? Who knows. But you deserve to finally be happy, Tibby. Please find some peace and please, please, PLEASE don't hurt yourself
It isn't so much that self-injury is hard for me to understand ( from what I know , it has a great deal to do with compensation and displacement) but , rather, that I hate to see anyone as plainly intelligent as you are do so. I know it sounds trite but if/when you see a therapist , you could do worse than printing out some of these blog entries and showing them to him/her , particularly if you're not confident about addressing these issues in person. Again , apologies for the advice or about being too presumptuous... Good to talk with you...
Originally Posted by 123xyz Just quickly , apologies for not reading this post before I replied to your later one. There isn't any need to feel disconcerted or worried about an inability to talk openly with a therapist. The therapist (provided they're at least half-way decent) will understand that you aren't ready yet to do much else in the session besides sit and blurt out a phrase or two. No one will be disappointed with you if this is the case... . Chin up , there's time yet... I realize that self injury can be difficult to understand if you are not the one doing it.For me it`s a coping mechanism.It`s the way I scream and let it all out.It`s unhealthy that much I do know.I do see a doctor and take medication. Thank you for your apology. Tibbs
Just quickly , apologies for not reading this post before I replied to your later one. There isn't any need to feel disconcerted or worried about an inability to talk openly with a therapist. The therapist (provided they're at least half-way decent) will understand that you aren't ready yet to do much else in the session besides sit and blurt out a phrase or two. No one will be disappointed with you if this is the case... . Chin up , there's time yet...
Jesus christ , what are you doing to yourself ? I realise I shouldn't be taking that tone with you, given that I don't know you at all but the horror compels me. Are you seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist ? Are you taking any prescribed medications for your tendency to self-harm? There are all sorts of good ones (with very few side-effects) like most of the SSRIs. Please don't keep doing this to yourself. As I expect you know, self-harm can be a rehearsal for something far more terrible. Don't give yourself the chance to work up to that. If you don't have family/friends to talk with, there are others available i.e professionals who won't be embarrassed/disgusted/bored by what it is that you have to say. Sorry about the advice ( it must be the last thing you feel like hearing), but taking such risks with yourself isn't worth it. Stay ...
Originally Posted by billy scissors Keep it up,Tibby. Thank you.I`ll do my best.
Keep it up,Tibby.
Originally Posted by sistasheila that sounds good! best of luck! Thanks
that sounds good! best of luck!
Originally Posted by KenzieW Quite. It's disruptive of the fun and normal stuff. My mom and I almost got lost going to an appointment today. We made it just in time though. It sure is.I`ve had just about enough of it.I dream of being normal.I think it would be so much more easy.
Quite. It's disruptive of the fun and normal stuff. My mom and I almost got lost going to an appointment today. We made it just in time though.
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